para sa yu'

i feel sad when i dont see you. i dont know why. i dont know why i keep on searching for you eventhough i dont exist in your world. i wake up everyday eager to see your face, even just a glimpse, a sight, a vision. your whole being just bedazzles me, in a way i've never experienced before. i treasure the days when i do see you, those fleeting seconds of your presence in my life. you've inspired me to be more, to be someone i was but lost. i wish we could meet and be friends. i wish to have that opportunity yet im scared at the same time.


haha.mushy mushy.

despite my headache...

aaahhh i feel like writing again despite the fact that my head is throbbing with inexplicable pain. inaantok na ako pero i figured lagi naman ako inaantok. my day was fine except muntik na kaming hindi makapagreport sa zoo (zuo hehe) knina dahil walang usb port ung compter sa classroom namin and napagsabhan pa ako ng prof ko na dapat inanticipate ko na daw un. anticipate? stone-age naman kasi ung computer noh! anyway, thank God nakapagreport parin kami. ang galing nga eh kasi sinipag akong gumawa ng report nung sunday kahit na hindi ko alam kung kelan kami magrereport. woo! blessing talaga. atleast hindi ako nagcram. i went to the chapel knina. naalala ko nung highschool i had a regular praying time (usually i pray sa skulbus). medyo nawala na ngaung habit na un since nagcollege ako. pero kanina i felt thati should do my praying time again. praying to God for me, is like talking to a friend. since madaldal naman ako na tao, ang dami ko nasasabi kay God. Ang saya nga eh...sobrang peaceful sa chapel. opposite from the hustle-bustle of the EDSa walk. i plan to do it again tomorrow...sana magising ako maaga. =)

never-ending palabok

nakatingin lang ako sa palabok fiesta na inorder ko...walang katapusan sa paghahalo...halo dito...lipat sa kabila...tangal ng mga unwanted elements...
knina ka pa nakatingin sa labas...walang imik...hindi man lamang ako tinitignan. nais ko kausapin ka...tanungin kung bakit hindi mo ako pinapansin, pero walang lumalabas sa bibig ko. tila ako isang pipi, un nga lang momentarily mute lang. habang nakatitig ako sa palabok, nais ko na sana'y buhay nalang ito...para atleast kausapin nya ako. "hi palabok! wats up with u?" nababaliw na ako...5 minuto na ang nakalipas...ni isang salita wala ka pang sinabi. ang bagal ng oras sa katahimikan. isa ba tong parusa? hindi ko alam. kung sabagay...palagi naman ganito. wala namang araw na nagkita tayo na walang moments of silence. hinihintay kitang magsalita...pls...pls...lagi nalang ako ang mauuna...bakit ganun...eto ang mga dahilan kung bakit ayaw na kitang makasama...ayoko na maranasan ang mga ganito. ayoko na magmukhang tanga nakatitig sa palabok wishing it was alive. bakit kung kelan matagal na tayong hindi nagkakasama, lagi pa tayong nagkakaganito...? alam kong hindi na makuwento...hindi madaldal. ako kasi yun eh. but im tired of being that already. ayoko na magsalita nang magsalita tapos ikaw wala ka naman kinukuwento sa akin. im a good listener naman. kaya nga tahimik nalang ako ngayon eh. hindi kita ginugulo. we're just two people who happened to sit together but dont really know each other. yeah that's wat we are. 3 rounds around sm without talking nanaman ang ginawa natin kanina. actually im kinda getting used to it. palakad lakad. mauuna ka. ako sumusunod lang werever u go. no conversations happening watsoever. minsan magsasalita pero kadalasan hindi. inaasahan mong ako lagi mauuna magkuwento...but i dont want to be that person anymore. get a clue! u be that person. hindi sa galit ako...gusto ko lang tumahimik para ikaw naman dba? nakakasawa rin kasi...nakakatamad na lagi nalang ako ang magkukuwento, ako magpapatawa, ako magsasabi kung san tayo pupunta, kung anu gagawin natin...
mabuti na siguro na minsan minsan lang tayo nagkikita, dahil if it were everyday like this...i'd really go insane.

virgin blogger...

i just copied the title off some other blog i saw...
actually i already made a blog, i just forgot the password-username stuff(doh! goes to show how much i want to have a blog...)
i figured, nobody's going to read this anyway...that's why ill be posting some serious stuff in here...joke.
why orange?...i like orange. (both the fruit and the color) weird daw ako coz i like the color orange and i tell them "hell yeah".noong una, i was thinking of making it into vegatable planet but orange sounded cooler.
NSTP namin kanina, we went to a public elem school to teach kids. personally, i like kids. panganay kasi ako kaya sanay na sa mga bata. kahit anung kulit pa ng mga yan i'll find a way to make them like me. (that sounded scary,anyway...) The experience was kinda cool, the only downside was we werent prepared for it. next week we have to bring flashcards and stuff for the kiddos.i got assigned to two girls, Elmarie and Hazelle. Hazelle was shy at first but warmed up after I talked to her. Elmarie was so full of stories. its so nice seeing and listening to kids. They know so little yet so much about this world. Another fun part of the experience was the recess. since i didnt bring any food with me, (doh!) I had to buy from the store. ang saya kasi may tinda sila nung Sunshine covered peas thingy...na paborito ko nung bata ako. i cant wait for next week to buy some more. may ice candy pa at cheese-it at richie at rinbee na tigpipiso. para akong bata ang dami dami dala pagkain. hehe.
i made a new friend too, his name is Gigo and AB Eng ang course nya. ang fun nga eh kasi FC kmi sa isa't isa. well, ganon naman talaga ako...minsan shy minsan kapalmuks. hehehe.
I know the name of MG already! after like 7 months of futile search. hehe. atleast now there's a name to the mystery guy dba? i really like his bag, nahihiya akong ifriend sya sa friendster at tanungin ang brand ng bag nya. mukha naman akong ewan nun. hindi ko alam kung gusto ko siyang makilala or just stay hidden. ill just admire him(and his bag) in silence. he also reminds me so much of Ryu. pareho pa cla ng stance.pati ung weird ewan look on his face. i have to admit that i was disappointed when i learned he wasnt jap. kala ko pa naman jap un. well minus pogi points un. hehe.
well so much for my 1st blog...till the next sudden urge of will to write.