Monday, September 18, 2006

pour toi.

its true that humans in their being human attach meanings to their surrounding. making the environment their world. and that is unlike other species.

i really dont want to cite philo... still have that philo paper for tomorrow argh...

i cant believe its actually coming to this. how can you look me in the eye and not see the me you've known... you've probably didnt see me as a friend. i was different. and now, you chose to diss me. and i have to figure this out all by myself. if this is what you want me to feel then i congratulate you for succeeding. i try not to notice the way you look at me now. the look of loathing and disinterestedness. how different were you last month even...maybe leopards do change their spots overnight. its too bad i learned to rely on you...friend. and i say that with spite.

every day i want all but to see you. don't look at me like that. don't look at me as if you don't know me. make me pretend to not care. make me stop believing in this.

nagagalit, naiinis, nanghihinayang, naasar, nalulungkot. hindi kita maintindihan. pero ayoko nang intindihin pa. let's go back to the original position. when you were still you, and i was me without you.